Alien Behavior

I feel like I don't belong on this planet. Like I am an alien and everyday I wake up and put this human suit on. I zip it up, look in the mirror, adjust it, and go out and enter the world. Desperately trying to blend with the other civilians. I don't understand their language, or their struggles that seem so big to them, yet so small to me. I don't get them, and they can not see the little green alien monster that I am inside.They see what I show them. A regular girl that hides behind a smile. I have them all fooled. They think I am like them. But I come from a different type of world. A very dark a scary place. A wasteland full of trash and rotting things. Everyone is angry there and everyone is unkind. Their are other girls aliens like me there and they go by names like Dirty, Filthy, and Shame. My name on that planet was Ugly because that what I felt inside. That's what those unkind people told me I was. I hated that horrible planet. 18 years of my life I wasted there. But then I grew up and I moved far away. The people here don't understand what it's like to live in a world that could be filled with such hurt. Or what its like to be  named Ugly, Filthy, or Dirty. We aliens work so hard to fit in, be like everyone, not stand out, or be judged for what we suffered or from where we come from but...sometimes that mask we put up, our human suit slowly starts to slip off. Revealing parts of who we really are. And sometimes when people see this, people that do not understand, they get scared. What we have gone through makes others uncomfortable. Some choose to walk away from us, leaving us when we need them most. When this happens I build my human suit tougher. Shielding more of me and pretending to be this new person. But if I need to pretend to keep these people in my life...Do I even really want them there? This suit I carry weighs me down. I need people who don't care where I come from, or how different I am. I need them to just care about me. The real me. Not who I try to be for them. I need people that will help take the weight of the world off my shoulders. If I am different, if I am a little green alien not like everyone else then I think its okay to be who i am. It's okay to be different. I will never return to that place I came from. This is my home now and I don't want to blend anymore. I want to stand out. And I want to support all of the other people out there that don't fit in either. By being different we form a solid union of uniquely similar people. We are all different and that makes us all the same. And we should all be able to live without judgements. Not having to hide where we come from or be ashamed of a life we had no control over. I'm tired of hiding me. I am who I am. I come from where I come from. You either except me or you don't. You either love me or you don't.