Dear life....I hate you

Today sucks, actually most days suck. But today just seems to be falling apart around me. Nothing is working. Therapy is hard, it was waay to intense and we focused on to much and now I'm overwhelmed. I'm sick, had to lose ANOTHER day of work because of that, and I can't even find a decent place to cry in this house because there's so many people and i have no privacy!

I went to my car. Broken down there. The kind of break down where you really need someone to hold you after but instead your alone...crying in a car. In fact I've never felt so alone before. My world crumples around me, my life turning to ash before my eyes and there's nothing I can do but let go and let it happen. I don't have the energy to try to put my life back together right now and I'm missing all of the important pieces to my puzzle. Maybe I will try again tomorrow. I just need to rest now.