I never thought I would find myself wishing I for a panic attack. But its been building for days and days, trying to pop up at times it shouldn't so I push it back down and avoid it. Now I so desperately need it to come out. I need one of those hysterical, over the top cries, where someone just holds onto you the entire time. I don't think I've ever needed to go to therapy as badly as I need to go right now. I'll be so relieved when the reporting is over. I've never been so terrified to speak before. I'm so shaky, and freezing, why am i so cold? Two more days....I say that like in two days this is over. Yeah the initial reporting is over in two days..but this is just the beginning. How do I know if I'm ready for what comes next?
Just take those slow deep breaths and concentrate on breathing for like 3 to 5 mins and close your eyes. This helps calm me when anxiety and fear are trying to overtake me.
ReplyDeleteYou should definitely read Morgan's story on my Rape Awareness Blog. She went through the reporting part and I think you will really identify with her. I hope this helps you not feel so alone.
http://breakingmysilence4healing.blogspot.com/2012/06/morgans-story.html
This story 3was really inspiring, that you for sharing it with me.
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